Now That I Have Opened My Heart I Might As Well...

"Honestly if you asked I would say we don't talk for the week." I know when you read this, you wonder who, what happened, why?  Wonder no more, all shall be revealed.  This was a Whats app message by my dear boyfriend.  It was after a weekend apart and an epic blunder on my side. So what could I have done to get it to this point?

It was a sunny Saturday morning, I woke up and to my horror I had overslept.  I panicked as I was heading for camp that weekend and we were to meet by 7.30am. In my defense the two days prior were so intensive borne with CATs and I had barely had any decent sleep. All the same I managed to convince my dear boyfriend to drop me.

 All was well till our team leader called to ask where I was. Ended up saying " On my way, my friend is dropping me." Well needless to say he was mad as hell. And when I think about it now I only said that to detach any blame for my tardiness towards him. Well I had hoped to make it right by introducing him to my team leader but didn't get the chance. So he left thinking I was ashamed of him. Nothing could be farther from the truth but there was no turning back the hands of time. 

Being a student and a leader while at it, I have a crazy schedule. I hoped to straighten things out after camp but time was not on my side. Worst part is I was under pressure due to a class presentation that didn't even happen!  So my dear boyfriend was hurt and mad and after trying to apologize enough times I have decided for once to let him be.

Being day one, it hadn't been easy. I could call him, sent a text got a non committal two word reply. It's painful and honestly been keeping busy just to avoid dwelling on it.
I miss him a lot and all the little things.  I really do. But well, not much I can do except go all 'dear diary'.

Today is day five as I finalize this post, I am happy to report all has been well. My dear boyfriend came around and the whole silent treatment was done by Day Two. I promise I am not exaggerating when I say it had been the longest and loneliest 24 hours ever. I kept missing him and thinking about him non stop fighting the urge to blow up his phone.

We have come a long way honestly and it feels good to finally have someone I actually feel like is the mystical  "the one". Now before the cynics roll their eyes and laugh away my naivety, I must say that it took a while to get to this point. Being the control freak I am, it was not easy to let go and just have someone take care of me for a change. My dear boyfriend has been my best friend honestly speaking. He knows me so well that I gave up lying 100% because he could always put two and two together.

I honestly must say that our getting to know each other was actually online and being a digital enthusiast I ain't afraid to share it. Sure, sure there are psychos out there on the world wide web but I am a big believer in fate. If it's meant to be, it's meant to be. We got together at a time I was least expecting love. The journey has been real, ups and downs, fights left right and center but I wouldn't have it any other way. We have grown in love together and the trust I have in him is unmeasurable. I actually recently concluded that I will take up his request to go Bungee jumping sometime in the future. He still doesn't know about it yet though.

I am quite a go getter and always very passionate about my causes and it feels so so good to finally find a man who isn't intimidated by me. One who actually supports me and is my biggest fan. He is the only one I ever let see me at my lowest, oh how I remember how I sobbed his chest wet when I failed the my first ever interview. He knew just what to say and kept me optimistic about the future.

I honestly can't picture life without him and thank God for everyday we are together. I know if I had to share our love story this post could end up being a novel because there is so much to say. I guess the whole point of this post is to let you know that if he or she is the one, you will always look forward to every new day.

True love does actually exist and one bad break up should not make you shut out any chances at finding love. Good men actually exist because truth be told my boyfriend treats me like a queen and I love him unconditionally!

Enough about me!